"Sayaka didn’t JUST want to heal Kyousuke’s arm, she wanted him to LOVE her for it. Homura didn’t JUST want to redo time, she wanted to SAVE Madoka. Mami didn’t JUST want to be saved, she wanted to have FRIENDS and a FAMILY. Kyoko didn’t JUST want her dad to have his followers back, she wanted her family to be HAPPY.
You see, because they weren’t clear or honest about their wishes, they didn’t get what they truly wanted, and in the end, that is what caused their misery”
this anime is fucked up
i’ve been making a lot of comics about being okay in the last few months, and this is one of them
- upset stomach and vomiting
- muscle aches
- chronic fatigue
- hormonal problems
- irregular menstrual cycles
- lowered immune system
- shortness of breath
- heart palpitations
it is a lot more than just “feeling anxious “
i loved him so much. how could i possibly lose him? how could i push him away? what the fuck is wrong with me? i never meant to hurt anyone, i just wanted to be happy for once… and i ended up hurting everyone. in a way i wish someone would give me an excuse to kill myself so i could never hurt anyone again. but im too afraid that someday i might have been happy and im too selfish to protect everyone else from me by dying because maybe one day i could have my stupid selfish happiness. but who would ever love a monster like me.
and i would rather sit on the phone and cry for hours even if he yelled at me the whole time and told me over and over he didnt want me because thats better than just being alone
and i made him hate me and i gave up everything that made me happy. and now he’ll only come back if she loans me him and who the fuck would ever agree to that.and i would hate myself for doing that to them because i know he wants to be with her not me but im running out of time. and if she said yes i would hate myself so much but i might actually do it because my hate for myself is eclipsed only by my selfish love for him. but there is no way in hell that she would ever agree to that and without him i am nothing and there is no one left in the world and i am completely alone and if that happened i would have to kill myself because i cant live seeing him with her when i love him more than life itself.
im the worst piece of shit person and i hurt everyone around me its no wonder i have no friends. i do the worst shit to people and then get angry at them and expect them to stay with me and get angry when they dont. i dont know why anyone would spend a minute with me. i literally just want to die but im too afraid that maybe someday i might end up happy and im too fucking selfish to do everyone else a favor and just end it. if someone killed me it would be such a blessing because im too cowardly to do it myself.
I’m lonely. All I want to be is held, all I want is to be loved, all I want is to know that everything will be okay. I dont know where to go in life, I have no idea if I am making the right decisions for myself. I am scared for the future. I cry myself to sleep, feeling so lonely. I feel as if everyone around me is leaving.
i cut off all my hair because i am a piece of shit monster and ugly inside and out and my hair was the last thing i thought was pretty about me but ugly girls don’t get to have pretty hair.
i hate myself for losing you
what do you do when you look in the mirror and staring at you is why he’s not here